{This Sacred Everyday} Amy Lepine Peterson

Amy Lepine Peterson is one of those kindreds I’ve found out there in the great big wide web. Every time I read her writing I’m moved or challenged or encouraged by our like-mindedness. I love having her here today. And it’s an honor to share her with you.



At this point, I’m pretty sure there’s not a safe seat left.  Every easy chair, couch cushion, and carpet has been peed on at one point or another. Despite my eco-friendly cleaning regimen of white vinegar & tea-tree oil, the scent of urine lingers – or I imagine it does –  wafting up each time I settle into the blue cushion of our second hand sofa.

Tonight I load the laundry in again, acrid undies and leggings and rags, remnants of potty training tried and failed.  If I don’t do the wash, she won’t have any pants to wear tomorrow. I measure the detergent, close the door, and sigh with self-pity.

The desert fathers sought out these kinds of menial tasks as a way of spiritual formation.  I know this.  I know they wove reeds into baskets, unwove them, wove them again.  An object lesson. A reminder that the heart behind the work is more important than the task itself. I get that.

But when my husband is sweeping up glass and glitter from the shattered snow globe, and I am blotting the fishy smell out of a throw pillow, and the toddler is screaming, “please!” and the preschooler is crying because of the newly sewn stitches across her forehead, my introverted brain thinks the desert fathers were lucky; at least they got to practice their menial tasks in solitude.

In the kitchen I whisper to Jack, “Are you tired of being a parent yet?” and bury my head in his chest.


Rosie is almost four, and uninterested in the potty training she had at some point mastered. Letters are what fascinate her; Rosie is learning to write her name. I find the alphabet drafted everywhere: our chalkboard, junk mail envelopes, book dust jackets, the floors and walls (we’ve had a few talks about those).   Her penmanship is distinctive; the “e” looks like a theta {Θ}, but I can’t bear to correct it. She’ll learn form and sequence soon enough, I tell myself, she will distinguish “b” from “d,” and eventually she will write her e’s correctly.

Last week Rosie’s teacher at preschool showed her how to form the letter “e”.  The girl came home with pages full of “e,” painstakingly traced, repeated over and over again.  She went straight to her chalkboard and continued drawing them.

She loved being shown the right way, being corrected, and practising the form.


Here we are again Lord, over and over, again and one more time we come before you.

This prayer is written in my decade-old journal, copied from a book I read once.  I still breathe it in and out as I go throughout my day.  Here we are again, Lord.  Washing the dishes again.  Marking the same grammar mistakes on a load of research papers. Over and over.  Pulling off band-aids.  Scrubbing mildew from the crevices around the drain.  Again and one more time. Walking into the backyard to scream for a quick second. Hoping for a chance to be alone in the bathroom for once. We come before you.

I breathe the prayer in and out, practicing the form.


Sometimes Rosie still reverts to thetas.  The theta-e and the stick-figure-R are what come naturally.  The true letter shapes, though she knows them, haven’t yet become part of her muscle memory.  She must focus intently to get them right, but she doesn’t mind being prompted, and she always loves the practice.

Here we are again, Lord, over and over, again and one more time we come before you. The prayer is changing my muscle memory, training my responses toward gratitude and patience. Weaving into my heart the habits of discipline I once despised,  I bring myself before God in each mundane task. I try to cultivate thankfulness, but if not that, I at least bring my unkempt,smelly heart before him, saying here it is, in all its selfish glory, again and one more time. He washes me, uncomplaining, and shows me how to form the words again.

Amy Lepine Peterson teaches ESL Writing and American Pop Culture at Taylor University, and spends most of her time making a home for her best-friend-husband and their two (frankly adorable) children. You can find her in the cornfields of Indiana, or online at  At the second year you can choose your conjoint programme eduessayhelper.org along with your main subject and the fees will be undoubtedly more than single ones

  • How lovely to see you here, Amy! I loved this post – true and beautiful and just what this mom needed to read.

    • Amy

      Thanks, Christie!

  • michaboyett

    Man, I can’t get enough of this. Today I’m wiping my kids’ noses. This big nasty chest cold in my house: Here we are again Lord. Over and over I wipe and wipe snot off their faces. Thanks for this, Amy.

    • Amy

      You’re the best.

  • My daughter is past four and still has accidents every day. Every accident feels like a parental failure. I love that line, that the desert fathers at least had solitude in which to practice their tasks. I long for that solitude but what a rich life the chaos brings with it.

    • Amy

      That’s actually some consolation to me. Maybe your girl, like mine, is a dreamer who gets so caught up in play she just can’t stop.

      I think the point about how rich the life of chaotic human relationships is is absolutely essential. Yes.

  • So much goodness here. I adore Amy’s writing wherever I find it. Thank you for hosting her here today, Micha. xo

    • Amy

      Thanks, Adele.

  • chrissy

    I have been training for a long run and the language of muscle memory keeps coming up. Reading this today and applying it to being grateful was a very good reminder to me. I have been practicing muscle memory and seeing it work. I love the day my body says ahhh yes I know what to do here. How much better for my heart to do this is the area of gratefulness. yes I want to learn this!
    Thanks Amy you have blessed me in many ways over the years.

    • Amy

      Chrissy, I know understand the value of a reliable babysitter (beyond jewels!), so I know what you mean, but I think the blessing went both ways.

      • Amy

        *now, not know

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  • Beautiful! I will be holding that prayer, and that attitude—Here we are again, Lord—close. Thank you for making it so real, Amy.