On Writing: Ego, Insecurity, and the Life of the Beloved


Several months ago, I emailed my former spiritual director, Debby, and asked her to help me get some perspective. I haven’t met with Debby since I moved to Austin and she moved away from San Francisco. I emailed her because several times during the process of  finishing my edits I would feel a panic attack rising up my body. My heart would beat wild, the stream of fear would push up toward my chest. I’d stop and take breaths. Then I’d go back to making final edits.

So much was weighing on this book for me. This was my heart’s work. And what if I ruined it?

At some point in the fall I shared this feeling with my friends at Moms Group. I told them I didn’t think I could bear the pressure of this, the fear that my book might be rejected, that I might be rejected. My friend Kristin, one of many who had watched my kids so I could make deadlines, pulled me aside after and said, “Micha, you’ve got to find a way to make this your offering. You have to find a way to give this to God. Otherwise, it will be too heavy for you to hold.”


I’d love for you to click over to ANTLER today, where I have a piece about the process of learning to offer my work to God, regardless of the outcome. I’m excited to share this post with you because it’s one of the most important things I’ve learned in a long time.

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  • Congratulations on your book, Micha! Just wanted to leave a simple thank you for your your words recently. I haven’t had time to put into words much of what life has been like for the past year for me, but your words have done just that and brought a level of freedom for me as they’ve hit the mark.

    • michaboyett

      So glad to hear from you, Meghan. I really am honored to have the chance to say some words that have resonated for you. This piece has really been it for me for the past several months. I’m still trying to absorb the power of what it means to live into my belovedness. I have a feeling I will work through that for a long time. Honored to be with you in the process.

  • Sarah Copeland

    I’m so glad I found your site, Micha! It’s so refreshing. I can relate to every word of this. Thank you for the reminder that we can give all of this to God, over and over and over again. What a freeing thought. Wishing your book wild success! May it bring hope and healing to many!

    • michaboyett

      Thank you, Sarah. So grateful you found me! I noticed you on Twitter yesterday as well…Looking forward to more conversations with you around here!

  • Debby Barbur

    The link to this article is broken. Is there another place where I can find this? Thanks!