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Still True, All the Way Through

  The other night I sat in a meeting with five other church elders and my head pastor, listening to him share the hard realities of leading our church. As he spoke to us, I recognized (again) the gift of being lead by a person who is attentively listening to God’s spirit. Thirty years in ministry, and he is ...

On being “healed of being a big deal”

When I was four years old, I donned the emerald green satin leotard of my dreams, tutu attached, and danced on a stage before an auditorium full of smiling people, STARING AT ME (and about fifteen other little girls). It was incredible. I still remember the smell of the satin,  the magic of their attention, their ...

When pastors fail

  I’m not new to stories of pastors who fail massively, publicly, sexually. Those of us who have been in the church long enough know the pain of watching a leader we love crash into the void of sexual failure. Recently news reached me that another pastor, this time a childhood friend, had made a devastating ...

Deacons and Elders and Me

In the church of my childhood they were all called deacons. The men who met once a month to lead the work of the church. Some managed the finances. Some oversaw the care of widows and the poor. They prayed for the pastor. They knew the struggles and the joys of the church. Only the godly men. And so, I was proud my dad ...

How Benedictine Spirituality Changed the Way I Mother

Last spring my first book came out. It’s a memoir about prayer and motherhood and how the Rule of St. Benedict gave me permission to move toward a new sort of relationship with God: one where grace weighs heavier than my ability to be impressive. These past few months I’ve been answering interview questions about ...

The Risk of Silence (on NOT blogging this summer)

I’m not blogging this month. Or next month. It seems that right now, I’ve run clear out of things to say. I’m not blogging because for months I was churning out words furiously, sacrificing too much time with my family, sacrificing rest. And I don’t think it was worth it. I’m not blogging because blogging ...

Deeper Story and Midday Connection

Hi Readers! Hi. You remember how we used to talk all the time? And I used to post pretty pictures and tell stories? I miss that. But I'm having an incredible summer of rest and I'm grateful for your patience as I take this break. I told you I'd be breaking in from time to time to share what I have going on around the ...